This is a spur of the moment kind of thing
But I think this may as well be my strongest written piece
Enjoy, springrolls! 😘 Don’t break my heart 💓
An overwhelming feeling
Sometimes stronger than love
You feel like sinking
Deeper
And
Deeper
With every push
Deliberate or not
Physical or mental
It is still a push
It can be a lot of things
A kick in the stomach
A slap in the face
A slam of the door
An angry scream
A few angry words
A poor choice of words
No matter how hard I swam
Struggle for a breath of fresh air
Trying not to sink
But I just sink
Faster
And
Faster
Like being stuck in Titanic
You are Rose
Pulling my frozen hands off the wooden piece
And watching me sink into the ocean
After you say you love me
But I am not Jack
I am alive
And yet
You let me go
You did not truly care
You did not give a shit
I knew that deep down
And I still gave you that power
To sink me
I couldn’t move
I felt my tears in my eyes
But my eyes felt dry
I could see your hands on the wooden piece
But why do I feel them
Pushing me down?
And why can’t I move?
Resist?
Everything around me
Cold and dead
Or did I mean inside me?
Doesn’t matter
I just ask myself
Why I gave you the power
To crush my soul
I felt alone
Insignificant
Cold
Sorrow
Forgotten
And left behind
Like trash thrown into the ocean
Like fish food to become fish shit
You add weight to mine
When I see you breathe freely
As I sink further into the dark
In the middle of this dark ocean
I plead to the Gods
If there are any
That I may once again taste sunshine
Against my skin
My skin wrinkling from my smile
My lungs filled with fresh air
My feet against the soft grass
My ears filled with the music of the wind
Not this cold
Skin tight
A dull sound of silence
I am in a prison of my own thoughts
In the dungeons of eternal pain
Being murdered little by little
By your so-called pointless words
And meaningless jokes
Crushing me under the tires of your vehicle of happiness
Your goddamn voice destroying my feelings
Your selfish, uncaring texts like a tsunami to my fragile mind
Sweeping me away into the deep, dark abyss
And yet the Gods still didn’t forget me
So it seems
Here I am
Alive and well
Lungs free of the water you filled
In this temporary bubble
Waiting to be popped
Like a ticking time-bomb
Waiting for more of your toxicity
Sincerely yours,
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